I don’t like…
April 10, 2021I don’t like being a mum. I don’t like the monotony, the repetition, the feeling that there are hours you’ll never get back. I don’t like the lack of productivity, the boredom and the mindlessness. I don’t like hanging around my daughter half reading the same books again. I don’t like putting the dolly’s clothes back on, again. Again, I don’t like being a mum. Unless. I like being a mum when I’m not pressured by time. When I’m not tired. When I can sit back with her and enjoy the laughter and the gobbledegook words that are forming. I…
Carrie-ing On
There’s something very Carrie Bradshaw, therapeutic-like writing these little things. Although my views don’t totally align with Bradshaw’s (the Sarah Jessica Parker – Sex and the City character), I see a beauty in her. She has a confidence that a…
Time with Mum
There is a chasmic, cyclical, unquenchable grief. I wish for the hands of time to unwind. Then I would reclaim that unique moment I felt adequate peace. A point in history where I could embrace my mum, wrapping my hands…
Playing the keyboard
When I was born, the doctor exclaimed that I would make a great pianist. This was due to my long, slender fingers. My parents recounted that story to me often. My mother wanted us children to learn to play the…
Is that a good thing?
She is a woman who is praised for her compliance. Is that a good thing? Her emphasis is not important, nor what she wants Is that a good thing? Her beauty is apparent to all that meet her. Is that…
Alive
I’m approaching my birthday. Although it is not a “significant one”, I’m caught in awe about life. I was looking at my daughter in her pram this morning and I was brought to a realisation that it’s such a privilege…
In the Meantrim
I once overheard a word from a colleague that she unintentionally coined. The words of meantime and interim were beautifully wound together to create “meantrim”. Someone else pointed out that meantrim is in fact not a real word. I loved…
Remember
It’s the thing you don’t naturally want But what you choose out of love You become willing because of wanting the best Not for you, but for other It’s seen in war It’s shown at home You give without expectation…
The Duet (This I know)
You loved me before I knew it. You loved me before I loved you. You loved me when I was unlovable. You loved me when I left you bleeding. I love you with inconsistency. I love you in a thoughtless,…
Don’t judge a book by its cover girl
I was about to write an article about true beauty. It was going to go speak something about natural beauty and the need not to wear makeup. I was then going to go a step further and start judging hard…
Where I see myself in five years
Five years ago I was selfish, non-committal and arrogant. I still encapsulate some of these attributes, but I believe there has been growth. The hard part is that growth usually comes exponentially when hardships or challenges are in the way. …
How to truly help someone
There’s so many of us that want to be of assistance to people, because we love people. But sometimes we don’t know where to start and where to end. This article looks at ways in which we can truly help…
Something I have learnt in the last 12 months
It’s one of my favourite questions that I ask people. “What have you been learning lately?” So I ask myself this as a time of reflection and inner growth. I feel like I have been learning a lot. One of…
The B**** at Work
I’ll leave names out. But I think you’ll know who I’m talking about. That b**** at work. She may be a Laura, Genevieve or a Sue. I’ll keep your name safe, but I’ll proclaim what you do. You go into…
It’s not fair
I live in a bubble, and I’m not talking a Coronavirus related bubble. I live in a bubble because I don’t think enough about the world outside my postcode. I live in a bubble because it’s too hard to acknowledge…
More than a Swear Word
There’s a chance I may offend you. There’s a possibility you won’t care. There’s a point at which you may roll your eyes and scroll your screen. But I want to share something special to me. The reason I do…
An open letter to my husband on his birthday
Forty-three huh! Happy birthday Caravajio Johnson. Congratulations on making it this far, not just in age, but in maturity. You are the best husband for me. I’m sorry that I have not always appreciated this. But now I do and…
The Problem with MAFS
Remember when the biggest drama on Australian television was to do with Alf trapped in a fire at Summer Bay? Or if Karl and Susan’s marriage was really over this time in Ramsay Street? Or if the return contestant on…
The expectation of our vocation
“A type of work that you feel you are suited to doing and to which you should give all your time and energy, or the feeling that a type of work suits you in this way” Cambridge Dictionary definition of…
Getting things done
Do you ever get to a place where around 3pm you wish that the day was already over? I do this thing where I start my day full of promise, but I end up petering out and not getting the…
I miss my mum
I wish I could switch my phone off. And I mean off. Not on silent or vibrate. Power off. I even asked my boss for special permission to hang my phone on a lanyard around my neck during work times…
