The sandpit

My dad gave Grace a sandpit this week.  For the last couple of days she has been really enjoying it.  I on the other hand was not.  Worries surfaced about more grit in the house and on our artificial lawn. The first day she had the sandpit, I sat at a distance, enjoying that she was enjoying it, but also […]

Quitting quitting

I have a tendency to quit   I’m all excited about fresh starts and beginnings.  However when it gets too hard, or when the shiny newness has worn off, I’m just left with the need for routine and consistency.  These things seem boring and lifeless.  It’s fun to start something new, to rip open the plastic wrap of a new journal.  […]

Money is my business

Recently, it occurred to me that money is the thing I trust most. I’m not exactly proud of this fact, and I want to change it. But acknowledgement is the first step. When I say that money is the thing I trust most, I don’t mean that I have faith that I will always have enough money to provide for […]

Let Her Rest

Let her restYou are aliveYet in a grave you stay Let her restShe feels no illIt’s peaceful where she lay Let her restYou wrestle and writheBut best to let it be Let her restYou know her wellFar more than memory Let her restDon’t worry nowLet her go beyond Let her restShe did her joband now she has gone on Let […]

The Thief of Joy

I find it funny how I can feel completely content whilst I sit at home, but if you put me in the ring with a few other women, one of two things may happen.  I can feel completely at home and connected with a sense of belonging.  Or I can feel inadequate, not enough and completely at a loss due […]

I can’t breastfeed…and other revelations to me

“Fed is best”.  The first time I heard that phrase was when I was having a deep and meaningful conversation with a friend after having my daughter.  Prior to having my daughter I had attempted to collect breast milk antenatally, without any luck.  After having her, I attempted to breastfeed, without any luck.  I attempted to express breast milk, without […]

20 Rules for Life

Love deeply. Love so much for the other person.  Love that person as much as you love yourself.  Love isn’t easy.  It’s hard work.  Love because you are loved. Stop upholding your image.  Do not hesitate because you are worried about what another person will think of you.  Yes, to some degree reputation is important.  However, stop being so consumed […]

Scared of the dark

I don’t like the dark.  I might even go as far as saying that I am scared of it.  Each night I leave the kitchen light on in our house as we all climb into bed and fall asleep.  Before I was married, I used to like to sleep with my bedside lamp on.  Since being married, there is an […]

The Impact of our Giving Decisions

There is a lot of need around us.  From advertisements highlighting malnutrition, to aid concerts for natural disasters, to individual requests on social media for those in hospital treatment, it can be hard to know where to start with charity.  One of the difficulties is deciding where our money should go.  Should I give it to someone in my street?  […]

Learning to Swim

One of the biggest obstacles in my life was that I couldn’t swim.  From the annual school swimming carnival, to birthday invitations at friends’ pool parties, to beach holidays…Not being able to swim and trying to hide that fact was all too much.  My family knew I couldn’t swim.  Non-swimmers kinda ran in the family.  But I tried hard to […]

I don’t like…

I don’t like being a mum.  I don’t like the monotony, the repetition, the feeling that there are hours you’ll never get back.  I don’t like the lack of productivity, the boredom and the mindlessness.  I don’t like hanging around my daughter half reading the same books again.  I don’t like putting the dolly’s clothes back on, again.  Again, I […]

Carrie-ing On

There’s something very Carrie Bradshaw, therapeutic-like writing these little things.  Although my views don’t totally align with Bradshaw’s (the Sarah Jessica Parker – Sex and the City character), I see a beauty in her.  She has a confidence that a lot of women don’t.  Her ability to say what she thinks doesn’t go unnoticed.  I’ve been thinking a bit lately […]